Lost in a daydream.

Maybe I'll just write a little.

Ever since school started everything seemed to have changed and become really foreign. It's different this time.

New academic year, new faces, orientation, bashes. Everyone seem to be proceeding well with life. Seeing that makes me feel like a huge contrast to the rest; like a black dot on a white paper.

FYP pretty much took up 60% of my life, 20% for the remaining mods, 20% for everyday living (minus goodnight sleeps). Even though sometimes I really have no idea what's the direction of my project, and sometimes have to read through so many times to finally get a gist of what these readings are about, I am not pissed (well usually I would) and I don't feel the need to rant it to anybody at all (usually would too). 

What's wrong is just that I feel like I'm stuck at the same spot while everyone is moving ahead. Happy for them, really. But I look at myself and wonder if whatever I'm doing is what I really want.

But I'm generally satisfied with life because all I have to deal with is school work. And I recently I think I became the old me in the sense that I can't give a shit about anything else other than school when it's semester time. But definitely, I'm still less hard up about doing well, which was the only point of my life years ago.

Now that I grew out of it I wonder if it's just me seeing the bigger picture of life or it's just plain laziness?

Okay idk what's the point of this I just need to make my thoughts tangible.